I am awed and amazed at the number of people who read these personal-reveal posts. Thanx, and here is yet another one.
21: Something you just can’t seem to get over
23: Something you always think “What if….” About
I’m not much one for navel-gazing. I feel that I am not entitled, but rather, pragmatic, fatalistic, realistic. What is – IS! The past is in the past. It’s over, and cannot be changed. Deal with it! Time and psychic energy expended in worrying about ‘What Might Have Been ‘, is lost and wasted.
There are many people, often with an overcharged ego and an excess of entitlement, who feel that if they work hard and apply themselves, get a good education, and make what they feel are the right decisions, then God, or Karma, will ensure them success in life.
IT DON”T WORK LIKE THAT! The universe is supremely disinterested in any one person. It is almost impossible to fare well in life without taking these steps, but doing so is no guarantee of success. No-one is assured a smooth ride. Nothing is God-ordained and meant to be.
When most people think about “What If” and something they just can’t get over, they imagine that some small change in the past would improve their life in the present. It’s just wishful thinking. I’ve had hardly any free times in my busy life to brood about lost potential opportunities.
A very few times, I’ve wondered, What if I didn’t have learning disabilities? What if I didn’t have my essential tremor? What if I didn’t have a sieve where my memory should be? Would I have achieved a post-secondary diploma? Would I have got a six- or seven-figure job? Would I have had a great career-arc, and have lots of money? Would I have ‘married better’?
Then I hear the little flutter that warns of the butterfly effect, and the heavy tromp of Karma’s boots in the hall. If things had been different, would I have done any better? Would I have had to spend so much time and mental energy getting my diploma and continuing study to master a trade – that I didn’t have time to study and appreciate the English language?
Would I have to rely on aides and secretaries to make my reports and directives literate and intelligible? Would I have failed to learn to read for enjoyment – would I be incapable of composing blog posts, both of which now occupy me in my retirement?
Money can’t buy happiness, although it makes looking for it a lot easier. Would I have married better, and would I have great amounts of money in savings and retirement funds, or would I have a string of three, successively-younger trophy wives, whose alimonies empty my bank accounts, and I live in a bachelor apartment till I die on the job, because I can’t afford to retire?
They say that you can’t cheat an honest man. You can, it just takes so much extra time and effort that it’s not usually worth it. Similarly, no-one wants to bother stealing from a poor man. If the stock market nosedives, I don’t care. If I’d been smart enough to make a lot of money, I might have been dumb enough to meet a Bernie Madoff, or a Nigerian prince.
Strive and struggle to make the most of what you can. Accept the present, and face the future. Don’t get a sore neck from looking back at what if! Let sleeping dogs lie, and don’t trip over them. My readers are my riches. You can compound your interest by showing up again in a couple of days. 😀